His Angel!

His Angel

I have a terrible secret; that some of you need to know.

My baby boy has Autism; although it doesn’t always show.

Most people don’t even notice; there is no sign that they can see

But that is not my secret; the terrible thing is me

Every mother knows; that it’s the scariest part

The times you feel you’re failing; and want a brand new start

You’re overwhelmed with worry; the fear is too intense

Nothing that you’re doing; seems to make any sense

Their lives and well being; are yours to mold and make

Be sure to pay attention; you can’t afford a single mistake

Then just when you’ve reached your limit; trying not to fall apart

You find out this child; has an extra sensitive heart

His life will be harder; the world a complicated place

Every thing confusing; even the expressions on your face

He’ll feel lost and all alone; most of the time inside himself

Like a brilliant little novel; that’s never picked up off the shelf

There are little things about him; only a mother will see the difference

Like his senses being heightened; forcing him to keep his distance

Things just won’t come easy; he’ll feel he doesn’t belong

Nobody else will understand; why it’s 100 times harder to be strong

A mom can handle everything; she doesn’t have a choice

Her heart is walking around; with an innocent little voice

But what happens when she can’t; when the job is taking its toll

Maybe she could do better; with this tiny little soul

Although I know it’s normal; to have doubts or lots of fear

The guilt is enough to kill me; worst mother of the year

The important thing to remember; is love is all it takes

Looking in his eyes; and my heart no longer aches

I can’t take away the chaos; or fix the world for him

But I’ll give him all of me; every single limb

And if that’s not enough; I’ll try another angle

I’ll do whatever it takes; to make sure he gets his Angel!